realizations
nr
i
can't
pretend
when
i'm
around
you
200621
...
nr
you
might
just
be
using
me
to
get
what
you
need
when
you
need
it
i
need
to
not
pretend
around
you
and
actually
make
you
aware
of
your
actions
200726
...
nr
it's
over
200726
...
nr
but
not
quite
?
something
is
over
but
maybe
something
else
is
new
.
or
maybe
things
are
different
yet
also
the
same
yet
changing
.
i
realized
it
bugged
me
a
bit
when
you
said
certain
things
weren't specifically
for
me
when
i'd
kind
of
assumed
they
were
.
maybe
i
feel
more
comfortable
when
you're
where
i
want
you
to
be
,
even
if
i
don't
want
to
be
there
.
200826
...
nr
i
’d
only
potentially
be
ready
to
know
how
you
feel
IF
it
’s
exactly
the
same
as
i
feel
,
but
i
don’t
know
if
i
ever
will
know
that
,
so
...
i
guess
this
is
a
realization
in
itself
.
200826
...
kcorewolf
patterns
200902
...
nr
i
really
don't
mind
not
hanging
out
with
you
220707
...
tender_square
today
,
i
overheard
a
guy
at
the
dmv
say
that
his
birth
year
was
2000
.
let
that
sink
in
for
a
moment
:
the
beginning
of
the
millennium
was
twenty
-three
years
ago
.
later
,
a
friend
and
i
texted
about
teeth
grinding
and
i
mentioned
that
i
wear
my
grade
school
retainer
as
a
mouth
guard.
that's
right
:
i
have
a
retainer
that's
older
than
the
dmv
dude
.
(
wouldn't
that
be
the
best
insult
? "
i
have
a
retainer
that's
more
mature
than
you
are
!")
230105
...
tender_square
i
dress
like
peg bundy.
for
work
today
,
i
wore
hot
pink
plaid
pants
,
a
zebra
cardigan
,
white
platform
mary
janes,
and
big
floral earrings.
230706
...
tender_square
he
tried
to
diminish
the
very
nature
of
the
wild
woman
that
i
am
out
of
a
need
to
have
a
secure
co
-existence
when
that
kind
of
safety
can
never
be
guaranteed.
230715
...
tender_square
i'm
celebrating
nine
years
of
sobriety
today
in
a
city
that
i
had
to
escape
from
thirteen
years
ago
in
order
to
reach
this
accomplishment.
230818
what's it to you?
who
go
blather
from
