morning_light
feminineeffects
I
wonder
what
it's
like
to
live
truly
alone
with
no
animals
or
ringing
phones
or
people
slamming
doors
.
I
wonder
if
you'd
have
the
greatest
sleep
of
all
or
if
it
would
just
be
crushing
loneliness
.
130213
...
raze
sometimes
i
still
think
about
the
mythical
house
in
the
middle
of
nowhere
,
away
from
everyone
and
everything
.
making
music
,
eating
,
sleeping
,
dreaming
,
and
little
else
.
not
interacting
with
another
soul
.
some
days
it's
a
very
appealing
thought
.
but
i
wonder
those
same
things
.
would
it
really
be
an
idyllic
existence
?
or
would
it
be
horribly
depressing
?
it
probably
comes
down
to
how
well
i
really
get
along
with
myself
when
there's
nothing
to
distract
me
from
...me.
130213
...
feminineeffects
When
he
leaves
and
wants
me
to
"
focus
on
me
"
and
not
worry
about
whatever
horror
to
my
senses
is
happening
,
I
want
to
make
music
and
be
peaceful
alone
and
express
who
I
know
to
be
under
this
overwhelm.
But
the
overwhelm
doesn't
go
away
and
it
stops
me
from
the
energy
needed
to
figure
out
how
to
record
beautiful
output
in
a
pleasing
way
.
I
spend
the
whole
opportunity
crying
or
worrying
or
believing he'll
call
reformed
and
ready
to
love
me
for
me
.
I
could
make
music
in
our
room
now
and
only
be
bothering
the
cat
,
who
won't
even
be
bothered
because
she's
settling
into
the
bathroom
to
sleep
.
I
need
to
get
a
hang
of
the
poetry
aspect
of
writing
again
,
but
here's
a
good
first
effort
in
11
years
!
240604
...
raze
(
i'll
say
.
it's
so
good
to
see
you
here
again
.)
240604
what's it to you?
who
go
blather
from