in_our_world Sonya Every morning when I wake up next to you I feel blessed. We can sit and talk for hours about everything under the sun and we AGREE. I was not frightened by the fact that last night after we made love...as we laid in bed you asked me what my fantasy marriage proposal would be like. You asked me how I would have wanted to be asked and I had no answer. I actually had to think about this... and it dawned on me that my mentality was so tarnished I actually started to believe that I would never find someone who would want to marry me...and yet...and yet... perhaps I should leave it up to Fate to decide. You're snoring again and I have my usual bought of insomnia that settles in late in the week. I have never been this happy. I have surpassed the levels of joy I once knew in the past with other people and it's a little frightening. I feel safe next to you - knowing that you'd do anything to take care of me and keep me out of harm's way. I am scared to say what my heart is telling me.. that you are..that you could be.. It is scary to realize it now- the feeling of the one. So much doubt dwelled in my heart over the last 3 years and you've managed to cement it all out with a feeling of certainty... a knowing that this is right and this is how things should be. I shall remember these days as long as I live. the reflective feline 060224 what's it to you? who go blather from