i_am_your_good_dog crOwl if i was a dog, a hunting dog someone has chained inside a small, fenced in area with a small wooden house big enough for me to sleep in, i would bark when you returned. i would wag my tail with alacrious abandon and leap against my chainlink walls as you approached. and when you touched me, my barking would cease, replaced only by a longing to lick your flesh, any part of you close enough to me. this is how i love you. how i always want you to be near me. and when you open my gate, i leap, paws on your thighs, nose to your crotch. i want to smell all of you. i want to know where you've been, what you've seen, who you talked to. i want your experience as mine. you will put me back in my locked enclosure. my tail wags slowly with defeat. head in paws, eyebrows arched, i will think of this, anticipating the next time. for you are my excitement. you are my reason. 051106 ... uh huh that's right 071207 ... unhinged leaving the pieces of my heart i killed on your doorstep to feed you with a prize a treasure i tracked i killed i left on your doorstep just for you your tentative arms wrapped around let go too soon i want to bury my head in your shoulder hold on and not let go and i wait eagerly panting for any scrap you want to throw me 071207 ... thejunketeer you commanded i obeyed without question you spurned me yet i stayed without the sense to run you struck me yet at night i crawled to your side curled into the warmth you brought me trinkets and i forgot how you left me starved for weeks only to come home smelling of another it took me so long so long to learn to snarl to learn to bite to learn to run and now i couldn't track you down even if i wanted to to show you how i've changed 071207 ... unhinged (this dog has gone into the mountains, alone, to die maybe not anytime soon but i'm a solitary pack animal with no one to provide for but myself) 180615 what's it to you? who go blather from