i_am_holding_this_scrap_of_paper fyn gula the sky strtetched itself out, waking, long lines of clouds seeking to be written upon. so much for me to say, but already, as i try to find a way to put words up there, it has changed. it is different with the passage of time. me, also. 020712 ... .. i am holding this scrap of paper, as i think it over once more. i think this is what i want to do, but.. there is that slight doubt in my mind that is half-holding me back. what if something goes wrong? what if everything goes wrong?? should i do it? should i wait? when should i 020712 ... user24 it has a number, a name of a company, a region, the GMT offset of the region, and 3 names. All I need is a phone. 040728 ... unhinged pinned up on my wall boxes full of lists your handwriting the only piece i have left cause you won't grace me with your_voice if i could explain it to you i would why no matter what you do i can't walk_away even though i should know better walked away from others for a lot less here i am still clinging to you and i guess you could say i'm in love with you but not the way it is in movies, soap operas a soul mate is more than love i've been lucky enough to have a few in my life the words you write the music you make a mirror to my soul so no matter what you do i can't walk away knowing you feel like that too and all the words i've said in the past few months pale in comparison to what it actually means to me in me for me you don't realize that all you have to do to love me is be you and that is enough friendship more meaningful than an relationship i've had i won't deface that with you if i could explain it rationally so that you wouldn't ignore me shit simple words can't describe this most complicated feeling what i share what i compress what i deny i've got boxes of your handwriting and sometimes it's the only thing of you that i've got but it's enough 040728 ... cr0wl hey fyn_gula, i heard you're visiting robin_hill this winter?! 100829 ... unhinged in a box in the closet letters you wrote me things you gave me i feel like i should throw the box away 100830 what's it to you? who go blather from