everything_i_need_to_say
auburn The only explanation is that I suffer from seasonal affective disorder.


I refuse to believe that I'm this sad all of the time. And the sun does tend to make my relatively happy.



I'm engaged to be married. And it feels really fucking weird to say that.



It has taken me two months to write this on blather. As if blather somehow makes it official...


I have more to say, hopefully the seconds and coordination to type will follow suit soon... 		090209
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cocoon before_i_die

blather finishing sentences. blather making statements. 		090209
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unhinged doesn't matter to you
'you need to take care of that on your own'
on the fringe
edges
periphery



what i should say to you
diametrically opposed
to the words that come out of my mouth
even after years
of your cursory interest
cold shoulders
i can't spit out the real feelings
except for
'i love you'
and i am thoroughly convinced
you have no idea what i mean
when i say 'i love you'
how hard that is for me
how important


yeah
you can't see past your nose
you don't care past your own advancement
cruel, unyielding, selfish
in a few more years
i will be able to cast you out 		090210
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unhinged i have dreams
where it all just tumbles out of my mouth
and_then
i walk_away 		090307
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raze everything i need to say
is said in a place
where most will never hear it
but at least it's said 		130406
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unhinged still gets stuck on the way out
after_all_these_years


but 'no'
is getting a little bit easier now
thank_god 		130407
what's it to you?
who go 		blather
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