cobblestone
raze
this
is
the
year
i'll
forget
how
to
wipe
my
own
ass
.
but
my
hands
and
my
face
are
clean
,
and
this
is
what
they
carry
:
green
shorts
with
a
tag
that
digs
too
deep
into
me
,
that
has
too
much
to
say
,
that
won't
be
silenced
until
i
strip
myself
bare
and
study
the
marks
that
have
been
made
.
map
to
a
place
i'll
never
visit
. wires
to
force
my
wandering
teeth
back
into
a
state
of
grudging servitude.
impressions
of
a
ruined
mountain
.
now
dynamite
my
life
apart
.
wet
and
warm
at
the
foot
of
a
bed
that
isn't
mine
,
that
won't
ever
hold
me
while
i
sleep
,
watching
a
television
set
as
small
as
my
head
as
it
rests
on
a
dresser
that's
taller
than
i
am
.
the
rodeo cowboy
gets
the
girl
,
but
he
dies
at
the
end
, gored
by
an
animal
bred
to
hate
every
man
it
meets.
you
read
me
kurt
cobain's
suicide
note
over
the
phone
,
and
i
wonder
what
it
must
be
like
to
fail
to
find
a
reason
to
live
while
looking
into
the
eyes
of
a
child
who
won't
own
a
single
memory
of
you
after
you
blow
a
hole
through
the
back
of
your
head
, who'll
only
know
your
face
from
pictures
and
video
footage.
a
good
humor
strawberry
shortcake
ice
cream
bar
is
just
a
trail
of
cobblestones
soft
enough
to
eat
.
i
don't
think
i
could
set
foot
on
a
path
that
cold
.
but
i
want
to
try
.
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