a_bit_of_bitterness eatingstars when i see pictures of myself, i don't see me i see ugly i don't feel like i look and i wish i didn't look this way fuck you don't tell me im pretty i know what i am i am the mediocrity of the world i know looks are not everything i know this but i am still scared i'm going to be left behind sometimes it is hard for me to understand why people like me fuck i don't even know that people actually do like me sometimes words fall out of my mouth that i swear weren't mine and i think, god i wouldn't even like you if i weren't you i would be lying if i said i didn't know what i want i would be lying if i said i thought i could get it here i am stuck on worthless shit that doesn't even matter i can't change who i am what i look like i feel like i've been fucked out of a fair chance i am feeling bitter (sometimes i wish i wasn't here) these thoughts have been here far too long i don't know what to do. 060315 ... unhinged 'you damaged our relationship by moving away' interesting wordchoice motherfucker i i....i... damaged our relationship interesting fucking interesting 060315 ... unhinged we were in a downtown club after his recital. i rarely go downtown. i've been more of a loner lately anyways. *shrugs* i had enough money for one drink. that was disappointing. i was sitting across the table from his brother, bitching about some skank that showed up, my usual comforting reaction. he was tall enough that even with both of us sitting down he had to look down at me to look in my eye. 'damn dude, you are so bitter.' 060520 what's it to you? who go blather from