count_them_on_one_finger unhinged the number of people in my life that understood even an inkling of what i meant when i said i_love_you (i am tired of living on myths and fantasies. i have excised all that from my life. there is a comfort to the reality of my aloneness) 090504 ... unhinged but i still have not grown entirely accustomed to going out to eat, to the bar alone. 090504 what's it to you? who go blather from