why_it_hurts
idonthaveaname the pain
two words
crushing
the end

because of 'no' 		031114
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cocoon Because I cant stop it, and I cant change the way I am. 040429
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inconnue he said it's just my body attacking itself 040429
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lotuseater its actually quite liberating to do someting intensely painful to yourself 040429
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bandersnatch if something bothers/annoys/hurts/depresses you it is not the thing/event/person that is bothering you, it is your perception of it that bothers you. change your perception and you change your reaction.

ever been woken up by anoying churping little birds and wanted them to go away? ever been walking somewhere and a birdsong fills the air and it is the most beautiful sound in the world? well, it is not the sounds of the animals, it is you current state of mind that bothers/pleases you. 		040430
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me well
it hurts because the wax just burnt the blood from my arm
y'know. thats just life
it hurts because my body cant take repeated assaults with sharp pointy objects 		040501
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beyond human evolve 040502
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skyburst i can't look anymore 041114
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mon uow because i want 050224
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mon uow and i don't want 050224
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chiidi because i am breathing and because i can count on any number of reminders to trigger that twisting sensation in at least one of the knives 050224
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andy it hurts because she is not here to whisper comforting things to me.

or to say nothing (and just know).

it's like there is a noise inside of me. i am constantly trying to block this noise out. if i defocus it grows too loud. far too loud.

it is like hearing the radio when the radio is not turned on. 		050329
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andy a bird just started singing. 050329
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andy it hurts because it hurts. because i'm scared. because there's too much hurt. because everyone is hurting. because i'm hurting everyone. 050329
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andy because nothing matters
when nothing matters
and noone is there
to see what you've done
and the neighbors scowl
from inside their houses
and everyone's talking
and there's nothing
and the trees turn grey
eyes stop their danceing
and oh god i laugh at myself while crying. 		050329
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andy i don't know why it hurts. 050329
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built to spill what is it that makes you cry?
and why? 		050329
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crOwl because she's my flesh and blood. 070215
what's it to you?
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