this_pain silentbobfuckinghimself betrayal loss anger frustration confusion hurt abandonment disorder wrecking aching throbbing stomach i feel so alone right now 010712 ... AFI I can not let go 010712 ... namae Write it down somewhere, some day you may well need it 010823 ... skyburst777 these pains 050611 ... unhinged peeling all the layers away to change for the better i want to be surrounded by as many of the people that i don't have to hide myself from my_new_family that's developed over the years but it's painful to think that i have to leave the one that raised me behind 050611 ... unhinged he took my heart with him today on that airplane; i got used to things without him. now i have to do it all over and i don't know if i can. sometimes you don't know just how much someone means to you until they go away, come back, and then go away again. 050625 what's it to you? who go blather from