the_unepected_urgency_of_happiness fyn gula when it is the sun who whispers in my sleeping face, her breath smelling of warm early spring rain, i awake stretching in the pleasant recollection of piquant dream, imagining her to be the birth of inspiration, the first answer to silent prayer, the initial highlight of a day destined to connect me surprise by surprise to the unexpected urgency of happiness. 030326 ... kerry last night it was relief or morphine... every brain somehow unlatched itself, filled with air and all the highpitched noises finally stopped. there's no telling how long it will last... right now i feel heavy but only physically and my head is attached by a string. she says nothing ever goes wrong if your nails are read. we have songs by the go-gos or the pixies thrashing about between our ears. musty bookstores and italian gelato, 3 girls crammed into a dressing room and one more jerking all the doors open. I said Selfishness isn't necessarily a Bad Thing. and fuck the administrators, my hallpass in your face, i am selfish just like the rest of you. i am a drugged personality as it is. 030326 ... kerry RED not READ 030326 what's it to you? who go blather from