smathryn
belly fire
I
have
these
bursts
now
and
then
(
lately
,
more
and
more
often
)
where
I
just
need
to
sit
down
and
talk
with
you
for
hours
and
hours
.
Not
about
the
weather
or
how
work
is
...any
of
that
shit
.
I
just
CRAVE
to
sit
down
and
hear
you
talk
with
me
about
ourselves
and
where
we
are
.
What
we
think
about
.
Things
that
make
us
laugh
and
remind
us
how
good
we
have
it
.
Last
week
I
laid
in
bed
with
Trevor
and
was
re
-telling
a
horrible
story
I
heard
on
the
news
.
Afterwards
we
were
quiet
for
many
minutes
and
I
said
, "
The
world
is
a
horrible
place
,
Trevor
."
and
he
answered
, "
We
should
be
grateful
for
who
we
are
...where
we
are
. Grateful
that
we
have
each
other
."
I
thought
of
you
then
.
So
here
you
are
starting
this
new
relationship
and
I
worry
about
you
.
I
worry
that
you
will
leave
out
the
bad
details
,
that
you
won't
tell
me
everything
.
I
worry
that
you
believe
I
think
everything
is
perfect
.
I
am
grateful
for
our
closeness,
our
almost
complete
disclosure
of
our
lives
(barring
the
odd
exception),
but
I
feel
you
pull
away
when
a
guy
comes
along
and
it
makes
me
wonder
if
you
are
being
treated
right
.
Are
you
being
treated
right
?
Anyway
,
it's
not
just
that
.
Mostly
it's
this
need
I
have
to
be
close
to
you
.
I
don't
want
things
to
be
perfect
I
just
want
to
hear
your
voice
sometimes
.
I'm
still
getting
used
to
living
without
you
.
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