she_had_been_dreaming_about_him crOwl look, there's a motorcycle laying on its side, and a lifeflight helicopter hovering above like a gentle mother bird, cutting soundwaves in the washed-clean blue morning sky. i drive by writing bad poetry and listen to wilco. sunlight, like stone without weight is upon our faces, all of us beginning the work week. we all wonder if this traffic delay will make us late. we look for shortcuts like a game. somewhere someone sleeps still. the fone call that will change their world as they know it is traveling the lines, about to ring. a policeman sweeps broken glass from the pavement. he is homesick. he remembers the pleasures of his week-end. the fone rings. "hello?" she chokes herself awake. she had been dreaming about him. 040922 ... unhinged the one that would cuddle kiss for hours and never once mention that he had condoms in his drawer the one that would grab her hand silently when her frustrations and stress shrieked so loudly against his eardrums not asking her to be quiet or settle down when she needed to scream the one who said nothing when she cried but just instinctively squeezed tighter not asking her to stop and the cuddling and the kissing never ended and they stared into each others eyes talking wordlessly for hours but really it was only her rem cycles completing 040922 ... jinx Every now and then I'll recognize something from a dream that's now being played out in real life. I'll know who will say what next. Most of the time though, when I have those dreams, I don't know the people in them. I was telling a professor, a friend of mine about these happenings. He said he thinks they're a sign of being on the right track, of me doing what I'm supposed to be doing. I've dreamt of him before I knew him. I had seen us before I ever saw him. I'm in the right place. 041119 ... cocoon the one(s) she will never have 041119 ... lotuseater i always wanted her to love me. i know that all of my best friends wanted the same, but i think they would agree that if she was with me, she would be safe. i would say the same for any of them. she doesnt know what she is doing. i dont know what she is doing. i really adore her every move, the slightest glance at me sends a blast into my brain. i shiver at the happiness. 041119 ... sardines i wonder how i can be in someone's dream. who is that man that someone has created with their thoughts? how do we have the same name? am i doing what they hope i would do in reality? or am i doing what i want to do in another world? where love is not bound and restricted. 130107 what's it to you? who go blather from