lady_lumps Jus I have a lump in my throat guys, it’s pretty intense Why? I don’t know, maybe because life is – in a word – fucked right now (I want to take that back because I don’t want to be ungrateful). But this lump, it moves. Sometimes it’s in my throat and I have to physically adjust my larynx to see if maybe I did just swallow a golf ball. And other times it’s floating around my lungs, lingering near the heart, or giving my back a firm pat. I’ve tried breathing exercises, they don’t help, the lump just rattles in place. And I’ve considered taking a bath. I even bought lavender scented Epsom salts, but it’s 2am and I’m just now finishing up. The lump, at this moment, has been swallowed and is bobbing in the contents of my stomach. It knows I have to wake up early and about the midterm and the first day of daycare and the laundry. It knows things I’ve forgotten, and things I will know soon. The lump may be omniscient for all I know. Long live the lump. 250928 ... Jus I've been diagnosed with "Generalized Anxiety Disorder" and in response have been getting absolutely blasted on CBD--as blasted as one can get on CBD. It's really just the good bits of weed without the psychotropic insanity and anxiety and stupidity. The lumps come and go. Today I was able to fight them off by stopping at a cannabis shop on my way to class. I was in full blown anxiety attack (lump=lung assassin) and the lady at the desk gave me a "CBD Bomb" and told me to eat it in front of her. I did. It was watermelon flavour. During class, I wished I had skipped and taken a walk in the woods instead. Chaucer has nothing on the woods. 251009 what's it to you? who go blather from