lingering
unhinged
you
said
to
me
'cant
you
just
let
it
go
?'
four_months_later
i
remember
the
oddest
random
things
.
and
then
i
have
to
go
find
your
dogs
hairs
on
a
sweater
i
recently
pulled
out
to
wear
again
in
that
many
months
.
we
were
a
good
team.
i
miss
that
.
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...
unhinged
i
still
think
of
you
every
day
but
the
thought
that
i
should
apologize,
try
again
,
speak
to
you
has
diminished
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...
unhinged
and
then
my
mother
almost
died
,
and
you
were
one
of
the
first
people
my
heart
wanted
to
reach
out
to
,
one
of
the
first
people
i
wanted
to
check
in
on
,
to
make
sure
you
were
ok
.
my_sweet_erasable_you
you
are
not
.
and
after
all
this
time
,
the
logical
part
of
me
wishes
i
could
finally
let
go
.
or
at
least
understand
what
keeps
my
heart
tied
to
you
.
but
logic
and
feelings
have
never
mixed
for
me
,
of
that
i
was
already
aware
when
you
asked
me
why
i
couldn't
just
'
let
it
go'
and
stay
friends
.
let
what
go
?
why
?
i
have
learned
in
the
past
year
that
i
am
not
as
selfless
as
i
wish
to
be
,
but
that
is
ok
because
i
am
human
.
that
i
need
to
be
more
forward
with
my
wants
and
needs
.
but
that
doesn't
mean
that
my
habit
of
silence
just
disappears.
why
tell
someone
what
i
need
when
they
are
not
willing
to
give
?
he
said
it
wasn't
fair
of
me
to
be
upset
when
i
never
told
him
what
i
wanted
.
which
is
true
.
but
...he basically
said
his
goals
were
more
important
to
him
,
which
i
figured
out
without
a
conversation
.
the
conversation
we
did
have
did
not
change
what
he
was
willing
to
give
or
that
his
level
involvement
was
not
making
me
happy
.
the
silent
ones
are
always
watching
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what's it to you?
who
go
blather
from