inhibition amy adaptation. my journal entry this morning -- lucky you!! 8. When I keep still in 8 I keep still out of fear of poor energy. When discerning, it is positive fear. When not discerning, it becomes a negative way to repress illusions. This causes a havoc in my trust mechanisms as I blame others for blaming me for not getting it right. So I try to play it out rather than bury it deep. It's pretty difficult to keep still in House number 8. But it's not an uncommon psychology. Paradoxically, you are able to keep still -- and sometimes, one-pointed and celibate -- after you have given non-discerning energy an expression. To out it, whether it's true and productive or false and counterproductive. And *that* is confusing to others. With more maturity, you discern with greater clarity and this fuels energetic alignment. Given other factors, you will have the grace to socialize. You had a strong psychological task to face as a direct result of the past. It has required that you confidently work through it to avoid spending ages in a muck you wouldn't deserve. Overconfidence can further confuse and wreck the progress, though. THis is why you go slow without putting too much pressure on yourself to achieve (in any real way) or others to submit to your personal psychology (or you wish you wouldn't, if it sucks) Forming right, functioning inhibition will still the "marketplace" of jealousy and revenge when they are born of perception and feelings of emptiness, when these feelings don't allow real being to breathe. 131026 ... epitome of incomprehensibility I am learning to walk the line between inhibited and hibited. Also disgruntled and gruntled. 131026 what's it to you? who go blather from