i_will_love_you_for_a_while crOwl i stood along the plywood staircase of your ramshackle house listening to you go on and on about how you almost wrecked on the slippery roads of this mountain landscape, as if you knew me like you know the people you name, all in the same out of breath tone that comes from splitting firewood until you get cramps in your legs. my hands were still numb from loading my pick-up and all the while i was hoping you wouldn't charge me more than a hundred dollars. finally when you were finished telling your story, using adjectives to describe assholes, like "fartin," you asked for ninety-five and like i always do i had to leave with a compliment so i told you to say hello to joe and that he was a nice man. love is this, this smell of work, this cold snowy morning, this look in the eye of some kind of genuine appreciation. 061208 ... unhinged and you will take every advantage and i will let you and my love will slowly sour already i'm tired 061209 ... crOwl i had to throw my shirt away. 080523 ... mourninglight there will be a time when you realize that the now is just as important as forever. I will love you now, and perhaps, it won't be so insignificant after all.. 080524 ... unhinged and this torn feeling of needing to tell you and being afraid to tell you and watching you with other people that couldn't surely know how great you are just makes it too hard besides if you knew how fucked up i really am i'm sure you would have run the other way long ago 080526 ... jane until my soul slips away in the middle of the night leaving me to fend for myself against the astrology of your face i will love you until the sun pries my eyes awake, until the road terminates in a watery mirage of snakes until every song concludes in a death rattle and we are faced with our mortality. 080527 ... megan and then awhile more and you can't stop me 080527 ... suicidalchinadoll a long long while. 090711 ... auburn The story of my life. 110215 what's it to you? who go blather from