i_searched_my_notes_for_the_word_before warmthofrelease could you imagine having the capacity to feel everything how long would it take before it all started to feel the same before everything felt like nothing before nothing felt like everything (April 2015) how many times will this thing end before it begins? how much paradise can you buy before you're forced to sell? (April 2015) I know it's gonna hit me before it helps me (June 2016) don't mistake concern for interest I've assaulted them both before on the living room floor and spent the night out of love, out of sight (June 2015) You have to learn to crawl before you learn to walk, that's true. But do you have to learn to recrawl before you learn to rewalk as well? (June 2015) (it's another busy day...) more bitter than sweet because those are my words more bitter than sweet cause it's my mouth rounding out the bad idea conquest at the request of an idiot blacking out the pages before you've learned to read (June 2016) [nonzero] there is one thing you can do for me hold my pot before I boil over (May 2015) (Used to be Manhattan) you damn near made a fool of me but I was a fool already oh lucky me and I will swear that I wrote all these before you met me, oh and who's to prove me wrong (August 2021) I would only use what I've learned from you to write a song I already knew before I met you almost rather forget you if I didn't enjoy sharing the pain so much in the moment no matter the after isn't that a little backwards? to appreciate the power of misery so much in the moment that you're under it then to feel so terrible afterwards? (they've told me since that so much beauty is destined for destruction and I have to believe it) (June 2015) Just casting these pearls now I don't care if it's before swine the divine the fool the divide the child inside the killers the kind or nothing I need them to go I need to throw them to throw (November 2022) 250705 what's it to you? who go blather from