heavyweight unhinged on my chest just pressing the tears right on out (might not help that i am intentionally listening to depressing music but sometimes i just need to let it out lubricated by some sad tunes or lyrics auditory rememberings leanings) and memories of numerous sets of strong arms wrapped around me smiles of people that really know me when i was out in the bay my blather_family i feel wrong, impatient, twisted here stupid milwaukee the midwest doesn't know what it's got in me easily passed over easily unseen by the blind, dumb, deaf 080723 ... unhinged ending always outweighs beginning for me i am avoiding taking the things off the wall scared of the emptiness i have known this house longer than i've lived here and if i could just magically transport it to a new neighborhood the deterioration of this one sad and alarming also afraid that living alone like i've wanted for so long will mire me in sadness the virtue of having a roommate that there was someone here at the end of the day to talk to that i didn't indulge and hold onto the tears so much yes the ending so far outweighs the beginning 080725 ... unhinged (also afraid the ghosts of you will further fade you sitting at the dining room table watching you walk away seeing you standing on the porch waiting for me as soon as i turned the corner my new place holding no memories of you except for the shirt you left behind) 080725 what's it to you? who go blather from