guatemala Bespeckled So I received this call from Guatemala and was surprised to hear your voice. You were bruised you were broken, but most of all you were missing me and wanting nothing more than to hold me again, on any continent, and if wanting something more than that were possible, it would have been wanting to keep me forever, to make me yours completely and never let me go again. I listened to all this on my phone here in Boston, my smile growing into my ears and my heart growing full with pride and with joy that you've finally said what I've been waiting for you to say. I felt my soul getting warmer, expanding to take you in and let you know, finally, that "I feel the exact same way, baby, and I'll always, always be true to you too!" and realizing that this love thing wasn't so bad, that vulnerability doesn't guarantee pain, that being completely devoted doesn't mark me for despair - it just means that we'll feel like this for eternity, and nothing will stand in our way, even a voyage to Guatemala and thousands of miles and ex-girlfriends too, and busy weeks and empty beds- "nothing can stop us now, baby! I'm in it for the long haul!" God, that moment was so blissful, as I realized I had nothing to be afraid of, at all! Of course, you've never been to Guatemala, and this whole thing never took place. (at all.) 050123 what's it to you? who go blather from