feigned
unhinged
now
scientists
have
added
a
third component
fight
flight
freeze
that
one
freeze
i
don't
like
to
fight
avoidant
but
i
don't
really
like
to
run
either
my
lower limbs
become
heavy
my
face
and
mind
become
blank
(
my
father
was
a
screamer
when
that
wrath
was
pointed
at
me
i
literally
couldn't
answer
his
questions
my
tongue
would
get
so
thick
it
couldn't
form
words
he
would
yell
more
my
tongue
would
barely
be
able
to
guide
the
saliva
down
my
throat
the
best
i
could
do
shake
my
head
and
he
would
banish
me
to
my
room
the
fear
of
being
hit
that
was
the
truth
of
it
he
thought
i
didn't
care
enough
to
respond
but
it
was
really
just
fear
activating
the
freeze
response
the
way
many
little
mammals
do
when
they
know
a
predator
is
looming)
i
retreat
deep
inside
rejection
reinforced
maybe
my
eyes
are
broadcasting:
keep
your
true
heart
hidden
frozen
sometimes
the
lessons_learned
from
my
early
days
in
that
incubator
feel
hard
win
(
i
don't
need
anyone
but
myself
i
am
the
only
one
that
i
can
count
on
)
but_then
the
skin_hunger
defrosts
my
frozen
hidden
heart
at
just
the
wrong
time
with
just
the
wrong
people
so
i
posture
i
am
smart
i
am
funny
i
am
friendly
no
threat
here
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