feckless raze someday someone will take your face in their hands tell you you're beautiful & you'll believe it fa la la feverdream first kiss last kiss cold nose cold hands warm feet puffy eyes tears wet teeth drink the experience from a faded coffee mug dark eyes quiet rooms seem smaller than they really are chipped nail polish cold water tastes better when you're with the right person everything tastes better unfinished basements you can manipulate time you can do anything when no one's around stale gum stained pillow cases jealous pets knotted air & feckless well-wishing this world you've constructed around yourself is about to crumble in rude spasms get in the car pretend you know where the hell you're going the truth has a very strange smell to it a cross between cabbage & watermelon 040107 ... rillian and his crowl earth. even the word sounded strange to him now. unfamiliar. we live in someone else's world. never ours. how long had he been back? did it matter? he tried to find the rhythm of the world he used to live in. he followed the current like a subway train. he was silent. attentive. he made a conscious effort to smile. nod. stand. and perform the millions of gestures that constitute life on earth. he studied these gestures until they became reflexes again. but he was haunted by the idea that he remembered everything wrong. 040108 what's it to you? who go blather from