do_you crOwl weep for the beauty of your life? 060714 ... leni strangely enough, yesterday, yes. that, and fear that it could fall apart, and that by crying i was possibly pulling it apart ... knowing that crying would make it hard for everyone and that i didn't want to paint our lives with sadness. the poetry in my head said i was drowned beneath a mountain of blessings i could neither count nor carry. this beauty makes me feel ill. it's almost enough to drive me to religion, to apease jealous gods and beg their protection. do you? 060715 ... crOwl i have. it comes like a wave, long anticipated. it's cleansing and renewing. seems to cause everything to begin again. respins the circle, you know? there is a grand children's book by shaun tan, called "the red tree." you should read it and you will weep for the beauty of your life. again, let me tell you, i am enjoying fleshburst. it is interesting to read the chronicles of one of your many lives. cheers. 060716 ... leni thanks crOwl, i'll have a look for that book. have you read 'the giving tree' by shel silverstein? i'm glad you're enjoying fleshburst ... fleshglobe was better though. it was just an amazing time. 060807 ... crOwl i have a large collection of children's books which "the giving tree" is a part of. it is one of the best stories ever written and no matter how many times i read it, i walk away inspired and renewed in my thinking of why i am here. i'm glad you suggested it. 060807 ... anouk do you miss me? 080405 what's it to you? who go blather from