bpd Soma electric jelly on the fritz. I'm crying again, much to nobody's surprise. Well, okay, maybe I'm a little surprised because I'd been presenting as happy for so many days in a row. These downward spirals don't go as deep as they used to, but they still have me circling the drain. I've got to stop trying to be happy for such long stretches. It's like I'm stealing balance from my future. 240125 ... raze she told me once that she and her sister and her brother all shared the same diagnosis. "that was an adventure," she said. "growing up in a tripolar household." both of the others burned the maps of their lives before they hit thirty. she's still breathing. sometimes i think of her sitting in my oval chair, looking like a kitten in a teacup, and i wonder how she's doing. 240126 ... nr forgive my getting these acronyms mixed up, but in this context, does bpd mean borderline personality disorder or bipolar disorder? 240127 ... Soma clinically, bpd is the common abbreviation for borderline personality disorder. bd is usually used for bipolar. There's some similarities in them if you look at a narrow slice of behavior, but when you look at the long-term patterns it is a little more clear cut. Both tend to have a lot of messy comorbidities that can make a clear-cut diagnosis complicated sometimes. 240127 ... raze (ah, shit. i'm sorry for putting what i wrote here. i didn't realize i was mixing up the two.) 240127 ... Soma blather is just word association anyways. seems fitting enough to me. 240128 what's it to you? who go blather from