night soia last night laying in the dark trying not to fall asleep to make it home, didn't want to sleep there, looked over and thought I saw D and it gave me a heart attack and didn't know whether to cry or laugh but really just thought "fuck. this will never end." This will never end this will never end this will never stop tell you to tell me this neurosis is different cause I'm different now and I will not live like this cause I can't and I know if I just had the right combination of mineral elements and attitude these words would stop flowing out of my mouth like I'm a fountain throwing up so much internal water. Oh yeah I've got this siddartha thing confused but I've always been that one to see the goal but not know how to act it and so we'll just say the story ended well but we know what really happened except these days we know this is no right/wrong/good/ what the fuck ever. 010617 ... amy bittersweet shadow 020825 ... Time Becomes a Loop after day after night after day after night all it is, all it ever will be tick after tock after tick...... 040822 ... crOwl 'night, i'm goin' t' bed. 041121 ... krupt is when i charge my fone... 080310 ... exquisiteparadox night the time when emotions bleed tears blur creation vivifies kisses intensify air liquifies eye makeup smolders lips stain inhibitions flounder music bites eyelids weigh life whispers possibility and or stagnation rake your tongue across your teeth and taste it 081024 ... kerry the walk to the rooftop bar was longer than expected but i didn’t mind. i’d never been to that part of town. the smell of roasting meat in the air, children running shrieking giggling in the alleys and most of the plants as limp as old handkerchiefs. by the bar there were men smoking cigarillos and yelling at other in i think vietnamese and some women were doing a 210801 ... kerry coordinated dance on the sidewalk. i dragged you across the street to take a picture of a mural and we were nearly hit by a cyclist--what you gotta death wish?--and we hardly heard him. set against the sky enormous gold sunflowers’ heads bent gently, wisely, the sky in a last gasp draped the street in peach light. the sun sets later now and i am wide awake with you. 210801 what's it to you? who go blather from