what_makes_you_afraid_of_swimming newme i love swimming i always have since even before i knew i knew how to swim is a pleasure beyond measure yeah something i couldn't live without i tell you it's darn cold water i swim and they can't retrieve bodies when they're 300 feet down and in some places the water is fivehundredfeetdeep i've been to the middle when i was younger i swam out to the centre and i looked down so cold the water its so dark below so murky freaky cold big waves during storms white capped crashing waves sometimes planes or boats go down and they're never found today it is hot hot cloudy sky july i'm going swimming 040726 ... unhinged the weight the oppressive weight of the water the way my lungs feel like they want to implode my breath small and ragged little bubbles escaping and i can't relax afraid that i will run out of air and the weight pushes on me intensifying the reality of running out of air i keep my head above water needless to say i don't go swimming in the ocean the weight AND the currents a formidable anxiety that drowns me before i have even one toe in the water 040726 ... tessa i'm afraid my body might forget who it is and where it belongs and try to stay down there 040726 ... slothisily sharks, fish, leeches even when i know there aren't any 040727 ... DammitJanet just one shark. named Ralph. he's waiting for me somewhere. somewhere when i'm careless enough to let my legs dance in the ocean. 040727 ... crOwl oh yeah, the shark in the water, eventually he's discovered. neues_leben_shark_in_the_water 040727 ... mon uow he said "the water calls to you" he said "it calls to people" 050226 what's it to you? who go blather from