urination raze you ever pee_in_a_bottle? i did once. it wasn't something i planned. it just happened. i think it was blue gatorade. before i pissed in it, i mean. i was watching this tv movie about ricky nelson when i started feeling sick. the movie was pretty decent, all things considered. not your typical hagiography. so it wasn't a physical response to some small-scale cinematic train wreck that fucked me up. i don't know what brought it on, but every time i tried to stand i felt like i was going to puke. the list of indignities i would choose to suffer through before throwing up is as long as the night is narrow. few things in my life have filled me with more fear than the feeling of bile burning through my throat, robbing me of oxygen. the vile taste of it. the all-consuming stench. time came when my bladder wouldn't be reasoned with anymore. i had this bottle beside my bed. so i did the sensible thing and made water where sugar and citric acid had been an hour before. i remembered reading once that urine tasted like beer. i wasn't legal drinking age. not that it mattered. but i didn't want to test that theory, even with a nonalcoholic lager. so i sucked on spit until ricky's plane went down. then i found my feet again. 240503 what's it to you? who go blather from