the_inevitable Sonya You called. We talked about the state of things, however dismal or depressing. I wonder sometimes how this will all turn out. I hope somehow things are bright in the end but maybe they won't be. And this doesn't necessarily mean a reunion like in the Hollywood movies. Maybe it just means we remember each other fondly and still chatter. You didn't sound too happy when you told me about the big change that is going to happen to you soon. I am left wondering why. Part of me thought you would be happy but your tone of voice said otherwise. I started to realize just how much you really do love me and care about me. Perhaps I was foolish in my disbelief at first because I didn't understand. Maybe part of me didn't want to understand. That doesn't change the fact that you're sorely missed... and I know now that maybe I'm missed too. Somehow I think Azriel could see the disaster (if you want to call it that) coming a mile away. Animals have such great instincts don't they? I miss her too. I miss watching her sit and I even miss her being naughty. I miss seeing her on your lap. Some day I'll have another companion in my life like her. I wonder now what we were meant to be to each other. Perhaps it was something entirely different than what we ended up being. I've learned a lot about myself through you. It's hard to explain but I know a little more about my complicated sense of self. Maybe you have too, about yourself? I can't say that everything is suddenly okay now, because it won't be for a long while. I know some day it will be. It's inevitable. I still believe that you and I crossed pathes for a reason which I've yet to figure out. The pain is still real. It's times like these when I wish I had a numbing agent in my Hello Kitty purse at all times. The only thing I'm sure of is I won't forget. I hope you don't forget. is weary. 050620 ... APRicochetMVP wow. just wow. i swear sonya, it's like you're taking pages from my life. good luck with everything. 050621 what's it to you? who go blather from