terrified_of_being_me
unhinged
cause
obviously
that
isn't
good
enough
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...
unhinged
or
too
good
?
too
sweet
too
friendly
too
loving
how
is
that
shit
possible
?
and
then
there
are
sparse
moments
that
make
it
worth
it
;
that
prove
to
me
that
love
and
persistence
actually
do
some
good
in
the
world
.
we
had
decided
to
drive
the
five
hours
to
visit
him
in
harrisburg.
he
called
several
times
,
in
disbelief
. '
you
guys
are
actually
coming
?'
'
why
would
we
say
we
were
if
we
weren't?'
'
well
i
just
wanted
to
tell
you
something
.
back
in
the
day
when
i
was
going
through
all
that
shit
,
i
was
a
selfish
asshole
.
i
only
thought
about
myself
.
but
you
helped
me
.
i
couldn't
say
that
back
then
,
but
i
just
wanted
to
say
thank
you
now
.
i
love
you
.' (sic)
i
had
to
choke
back
tears
. '
yeah
,
i
love
you
too
.'
'
are
you
crying
?'
'
no
.
no
.
why
would
i
be
crying
?'
'
don't
cry
.
i
love
you
.'
and
i
would
still
drive
all
that
way
. *
sigh
*
071118
...
unhinged
rejected
yet
again
.
it
took
me
months
to
let
myself
out
because
right
before
we
met
someone
else
had
dumped
me
.
after
the
real
me
was
more
apparent
he
wanted
to
be
friends
but
i
dont
torture
myself
like
that
anymore
.
once
again
,
who
i
am
wasnt
good
enough
.
the
only
reason
i
could
get
out
of
him
:
'
you
arent
enough
like
my
ex'
i
am
not
going
to
pretend
.
i
am
not
going
to
expose
my
soft
parts
for
people
to
rip
to
shreds
like
that
.
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...
epitome of incomprehensibility
Sometimes
.
Sometimes
it's
because
I'm
afraid
other
people
won't
like
me
.
Other
times
I'm
afraid
I
won't
like
myself
.
Either
way
,
I
should
let
go
of
the
idea
.
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what's it to you?
who
go
blather
from