not_boyfriend Bizzar i never knew how much it could hurt. to place all of my hope on a shelf and lock it away. in the darkest corner of a closet that i'll never return to. but what even is the point in keeping it now? might as well... burn it. through the years, the barriers that kept us apart were big and many. i knew, yet i hoped anyway. i felt you change in my presence. i saw the eyes that were only for me. and as i watched all the barriers slowly erode, i waited for you to see me. but you never even turned my way. so tell me, my best friend, how do i tell my heart that your love was never meant for me? how do i explain that i was alone when i felt my world shift the first time i looked into your eyes? that when my cells scream for you in your absence, that yours call out for someone else? how do i tell my hear that the universe was wrong when it told me you were my home? it's cruel. it feels unfair. that my world will never fit right. that i'll never get the chance to wake up not in love with you. that it's impossible to not love you, yet easy for you to not love me. take all the light i helped you find, and fly. and give it to her. i will someday find a way to lift this weight off of my chest. i will someday take a breath that isn't filled with the dust of the dreams i built of us. 240426 what's it to you? who go blather from