my_mind_is_exploding_from_within_my_head thorn and it fucking scares me. my mind is spinning i can't focus i am extremely edgy always i burst into tears i scream at people i don't even know what to do. and it just feels so bad. i hate being like this. it scares me. 071010 ... kerry lately i often wonder if i can do this job, even though i've really just gotten started. i feel like a sponge for other people's doubts, stress, anxiety, nihilism, depression, confusion. i am soaked. i see their faces and hear their voices when i'm going about my day, brushing my teeth, eating lunch, playing with my dog, comparing shampoo prices at rite-aid. i feel the constant tugging of neediness and it makes me resentful. sometimes i look at them and think "jesus christ, shut up. i've got my own shit to deal with." 220912 what's it to you? who go blather from