left_out j_blue because i dont think we can be right_out, can we? 010615 ... psychobabe *sigh* why am I feeling left out of so many things lately? i'm not sayin its other peoples fault its just...i dunno i feel left out. Thats all.. 011123 ... nr everyone talks to everyone else more than they talk to me. it's not the best for the self_esteem. 211209 ... nr maybe it's due to avoidant_tendencies or just not the right connections 211209 ... unhinged the_far_edge_of_the_circle 211210 ... epitome of incomprehensibility I can step back and say it's usually an illusion, and even when it's true it's just a side effect of people being preoccupied with themselves. But the reasoning doesn't always reach my feelings. 211210 ... FauxGrr Amazingly enough, the same people who left me out of things when I was in high school still do now. I am not sure why I am friends with them still aside from the fact that I know they are not always the healthiest mentally. Or maybe I just stopped caring. At my age, being left out does hurt but not as much as it did back when I was young. 250107 ... raze the people who used to tell me i took this sort of thing too personally were the same ones who were blowing me off or not bothering to tell me they were in town until they'd already left, if i didn't hear it secondhand from someone else. there's a joke in there somewhere, but i never did find the punchline. 250108 what's it to you? who go blather from