learn_to_love eatingstars being warm and safe is boring and lonely but i can't quite convince myself warm and safe and boring is better than fucking freezing and confused and possibly happy nothing good is easy it takes courage to be who you are it takes courage to get what you want all along it's been confidence that i've lacked all along blaming it on other factors not realizing love comes from within like just about everything else when things feel like a matter of life or death, we do whatever it takes to live why can't i live life like everything is a matter of life or death? because really, everything is. if you can die feeling like you haven't gotten a single thing you really wanted, then you really haven't lived. i am too scared to pursue what i want. when will i learn to love myself enough to believe it is possible others could love me too? so many things we learn in school so many things we learn in life all those great report cards but we never learned love i never learned how to hug someone without the overcoming feeling of awkwardness i never learned how to share myself with others i never learned how to be a good friend i never learned how to be a good lover how can we live without knowing how to love? 080322 ... c r 0 w l i think learning is all about wanting, desiring, questioning, seeking...which you are doing. keep stepping forward across the bridge. choose the solid places for your feet. hold on to the railing. don't look too long over the edge. believe and trust there are answers waiting for you on the other side. yet, there will be other bridges to cross.. 080323 ... jane learning_to_love_you_more 080324 what's it to you? who go blather from