i've_been nom i keep wondering where i've been 060720 ... dries&hardens doing so much to keep from missing you and so careful to avoid using those words knowing that stringing them together would only bring the feeling to fruition i've been making excuses telling myself that i don't care i don't want you to call i'm enjoying being away from you which is kind of true in that it's easier sometimes missing you rather than being hurt by you-- it's easier to be forced into low expectations by distance than to be let down easier for now to pretend you don't exist and that i haven't been missing you 060720 ... nom i've been wondering where i've been 060721 ... nom i've been wondering 060721 ... nom i've been 060721 ... crOwl workin' on dee railroad, all dee livelong day... 060721 ... amy adaptation working on some particularly thorny issues. i can't do my version of psychoneurotic babbling to hear what i truly think about them. this somewhat lame-ass mirror can tend to only allow me to hear myself talk, errr, write. talk-write. haven't been really writing much. no. not much at all. is it helpful to reflect on what_just_happened, or does it only keep you in a delinquent past? 130405 ... raze breaking glass in your room again. 231114 what's it to you? who go blather from