better_than_this kerry skinny spiderweb audrey shy sneaky cat-eyes little no-hands do you remember your indian name? your vietnamese mouth fading fuzzy sihlouette we angled the couch and my mother bumped up the heat they stole our tv, audrey we watched aliens and mel gibson, i didn't expect to like it, we screamed simultaneously and dove into the couch cushions. came up for air in hysterics, we felt like such little girls. i remember that story jackie told me about the puppies in the bucket. warm quivering yellow hands smooth over a round, plump bundle of hot coals heartbeat pumping beaming like UFO lights it slowed and calmed and stopped altogether dead puppies in your backseat you drive home in the dark, you are too small, you look at the world through a prism drawing every angle. 030117 ... cccrrrro00owwwlll am i geode? i wonder. break my ordinary exterior and what do you find? 090308 ... unhinged an amazing artist, father, husband, teacher. huge raw crystals of love growing on the inside, migrating towards the surface, trying to bust out. that would make some lovely bookends if they cracked your geode open. (don't underestimate the power of beautiful sparkly shiny love) 090308 ... unhinged guiding nature into gardens with the power of your own hands is pretty awesome too 090308 ... cr0wl thanks sweetheart...xo 090309 ... unhinged i myself have been discontent lately, but i was hanging out with some friends from work, imbibing of things and i finalized a new song and i realized that maybe there are some good things in life even when it's grimy. so as long as i'm feeling like a ray of sunshine instead of a gloomy eeyore cloud, i feel like i should spread some love around. funny how i've always wanted to help others see their own wonderfulness but have always had a problem recognizing my own. 090309 what's it to you? who go blather from