all_this_time unhinged ive convinced myself i should be angry with you. i could have done more to coax the truth out of you. i could have tried harder to find out who you were.i was worried that my curiousity would be an intrusion, like my feelings for you unreturned. i didnt have closure but i know better; there is no closure. only varying degrees of uncertainty. you turned away. you didnt look back. who knows if you ever would have bothered to say goodbye. i thought i saw you on the bus a few weeks ago. i was still too afraid to look you in the eye. my heart and hands trembled to be that near to who i thought might be you. but you said nothing just like i knew you would. time hasnt taught me better. i still havent learned better. 131011 ... unhinged (fear stopped us from being what we should have been) 131011 what's it to you? who go blather from