nutshell violet what I am doing right now puts me in a nutshell I was going to come home last night and sleep and then wake up in time to catch my second class, as usual but I stayed because it was his last night and then I was forced to wake up at 5am to take him to the airport so if I stayed awake I could go to my first class, which sounded like hell but I got some coffee and a cinnamon roll and did it good news right? no. my strange morning nihilism led me into a quikEmart to get orange juice and when I said "will that be all?" I said "no, and a pack of marlboro lights" I don't smoke. I don't smoke. it does nothing positive for you, it may be bad for your health, and it's expensive, not to mention smelly it's an addiction with no redeeming value now having smoked two out of the pack I find myself muttering "what is wrong with me" but more than ever I accept that I will not do the right thing, ever. for example I haven't showered yet and about now is when I would wake up. I've been doing nothing since I got back. I thought to myself "I should get going and then I can get some extra stuff done before I leave" but instead I've been sitting here doing totally useless things I want to go home I want to go home. 010718 ... five year old squillo groin_cup 010719 ... Arwyn totally dude. 020307 what's it to you? who go blather from