please_go native persimmon A convenience I'd been holding out for- I knew from the beginning ( that would be last month, and I wouldn't have started otherwise) that today would arrive when off you must go, but it's I (maybe you, too) whose already tired, bored, had enough of your antics- Oh I do agree it was all too convenient (and unneccessary), and now if you'd please_go (let's make a clean break) and leave me to listen to the dawn rain alone. I once did beg you to please_stay, did I not? Finnicky 060516 ... unhinged you stopped needing me and finally i stopping loving you i don't have much to say knowing your reaction i've been here before heard her say 'i just want to hang out with you shoot the shit you know' yeah, i know i loved you would have given you anything but all you wanted was the superficial comfort of an enabling acquaintance i need someone to work the steps with me someone that won't laugh at my newfound religion someone that might even possibly sit in the present with me without swallowing everything in sight that can make us forget that keeps the wall between us i am done with the superifical comfort of strangers 060516 ... native persimmon Somehow I can only ever think it through hinging on my culpability (some day I'll separate for myself to fester and to thrive). I'm liable to issue curt monologues disloyal to me, a sticky-sweet carpet that kept you near. To a second man I gave words, words, words brooking a vague addiction unable to circumnavigate respect, awareness. Then it is I who came up short. You and I drifting in opposing hazes of agency; did you mean anything you did? Did I say anything I meant? 060608 what's it to you? who go blather from