overutilize amy adaptability i watched a David Foster Wallace video on youtube where he said why use 'utilize' when 'use' will do just fine. well - it's a longer word for longer circumstances, hrmm. also, why should it be overutilized? especially if it is unconnected to the real world? unless one is into some emotional addiction which is one some level, always some sort of will to power, real or imagined. also though: some have greater resources. some are more irrepressible. artists. i've always wondered: why be an artist if as soon as you create it, you move on, emotionally. i do -- or maybe i just don't unite emotionally with much? that's always been such a question for me. why must these products of creativity stick? i can only conclude that i work at a low, unserious level. yet i am a fairly serious person. i'm imagining too many muses. yes. that's my productivity problem, leading to all sorts of wrong affects and personalily instability. i was in therapy and i was thinking, man it is so easy to forget what i'm all about as soon as sit in this chair and submit to not being either assertive, aggressive, or defensive. i might lose it all if i take this therapy stuff too much to heart. overutilization = addictions of all sorts? maybe. yes. OTOH distractibility doesn't produce nothin'. 121121 ... amy adaptability i watched a David Foster Wallace video on youtube where he said why use 'utilize' when 'use' will do just fine. well - it's a longer word for longer circumstances, hrmm. also, why should it be overutilized? especially if it is unconnected to the real world? unless one is into some emotional addiction which is one some level, always some sort of will to power, real or imagined. also though: some have greater resources. some are more irrepressible. artists. i've always wondered: why be an artist if as soon as you create it, you move on, emotionally. i do -- or maybe i just don't unite emotionally with much? that's always been such a question for me. why must these products of creativity stick? i can only conclude that i work at a low, unserious level. yet i am a fairly serious person. i'm imagining too many muses. yes. that's my productivity problem, leading to all sorts of wrong affects and personalily instability. i was in therapy and i was thinking, man it is so easy to forget what i'm all about as soon as sit in this chair and submit to not being either assertive, aggressive, or defensive. i might lose it all if i take this therapy stuff too much to heart. overutilization = addictions of all sorts? maybe. yes. OTOH distractibility doesn't produce nothin'. 121121 ... amy adaptability sorry post double overdoin it. 121121 ... amy adaptability sorry post double overdoin it. 121121 ... raze i can't speak for anyone else, but i can tell you i create because there's something inside that needs to find expression. it's not about what's created, really. it's about remaining in motion and feeling there's purpose to the movement, even if it isn't always clear what i'm moving from or toward. it's fuel that can be used both to keep on going, and to burn things down. if that makes any sense. 121121 ... amy adaptability So, if i get you right, it's energy but not an object. I can understand that creativity is that. I've never been convinced that others might value it if I do it. I might be on a perpetual inhibition streak, however...( more or less , that is ) 121121 what's it to you? who go blather from