lost_in_my_own_thoughts
stupidpunkgirl trying, desperately,
to find my way through
the tangle of thoughts
that live inside my mind

and i'm losing myself
to the insanity plea
and the people are a blur
they won't stop to help me

as i wander around every day
i do the same in my head
trying to get out
trapped inside and lost 		010906
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silentbob its better than being lost in someone elses. 010906
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unhinged i was always one to make myself miserable on anniversaries. when this one came i thought about it subconciously all day. when the bouncer i.d.ed me he wrote an n on my right hand and an o on my left hand. that fact that i had the word 'no' written on my hands on that particular day struck me as painfully ironic. we were driving to dennys and she was listening to the learning to fail tape she had and traffic came on. i just let myself get lost in the memory of being curled up like a fetus on my floor and crying for at least an hour to that song. i could give a fuck about that worthless piece of shit. i could give a fuck about anyone. i'm becoming quite a selfish person. i have reached my automatic shut off point. 010906
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unhinged well some of that was a blatant lie but if i keep saying it it might come true. 010906
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silentbob interrupted by a tap on my shoulder

how_dare_you 		020324
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unhinged i've been here too long; my old blathes recycled in the recent list and i'm still feeling the same. just in a different cycle of the same shit. *sigh* 050812
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megan they don't let me have conversations all the time
and they make me feel right at home with the silent, the broken
with the apathetic
and the vain

too caught up in our own thoughts
too confused that the world can't step in and translate for us
too sick of thinking about it to care anymore 		050814
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thorn i'm floating and getting stuck at the same time
my thoughts are a tangly swirling mess
and they're catching me
and i can't get out, i can't stop thinking
about all these things
i should have done
and everything that's gone wrong. 		050814
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