life_requires_us_to_move this should be rillian where am i going? am i always where i need to be? why am i in this place right now? is there somewhere else i should be? why do i have awareness of this place? why do i choose to to be here right now? not only responsible, but............... ALIVE? when i am dead i think the answers will come. i think i am missing it. life is more about the moments we have with people that seem inconsequential. that's not a lie. even though we've been told that all our lives. life is the little moments no one thinks are important. the times when we ask strangers banal questions and their eyes suddenly light up. they answer as if they are being interviewed for some fucking magazine. they look us in the face and don't turn away, as if nervousness wasn't an issue to be concerned about. they tell us things they meant to say to someone who never asked them. but we did. we listen. we respond. 031231 ... endless desire oh so that's why i am doing so poorly 040101 ... amy to someplace where people aren't in quite such a decadent mood two-thirds of the time... well, i'm not writing the story, am i...? 040101 ... misstree we are all sharks and to stop is to suffocate, no fresh sustenance over fragile gills. if we do not move we drown in our own stillness. 040102 ... jane paradigm_shift 070911 what's it to you? who go blather from