janus_faced unhinged looking back (the year of the cracked path as my broken rune predicted. a year of unremitting loss so deep there is no way i could stay on the same path; a cataclysm, a time of mass unsettling, a time of breaking free of old bonds. painful in the process but hopeful in the passing. i comb the past for hints of the future) looking forward (the weight on my chest seems lighter now. because i made the effort to acknowledge it rather than ignore it. the darkness is waning and true strength has been revealed. there is a clear hinge, pivot. from young adulthood to middle age. i keep my grey hairs, sparkling like silver tinsel, as the badge of hard earned wisdom they truly are. something to point to when people refuse to believe me when i tell them my age.) 220101 what's it to you? who go blather from