here_i_am nom i love you still 060327 ... tilt lost_and_found eternally. 071212 ... jane comt_and_take_me 071212 ... jane come_and_take_me 071212 ... tilt wonders is that an invitation? 071212 ... tilt must stop talking like that. apologies. 071212 ... junketeer see_right_through_me 071212 ... cr0wl where i ought to be. 090905 ... belly fire When she visits and I can FEEL her eyes upon me; critiquing every inch of my body. I stand inside my closet and feel like I'm having a freakin' nervous breakdown...wondering what clothes I can wear like amour against her probing eyes. I wonder when it was that I gave her permission to treat me this way. Just when I feel like I've finally become comfortable with who I am, she shames me. Next time I will tell her, "I'm sorry you didn't get the daughter-in-law you always dreamed of. Instead, here I am, you have me. 090906 ... no reason http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r3gEYGMb2aY&NR=1 well, it's not really me, but hopefully will be soon. i play one of the caixas/snare drums. it's super fun and fast and i have new blisters/battle scars. 090906 ... unhinged spun out of control open heart wounds familiar tears somehow i always end up right back here and it's nobody's fault but my own *sigh* 090906 ... faerielord no matter how unhinged you feel here i am 090907 ... raze dry and waiting, when i should be walking, and the shirt that covers almost everything above my waist should be soaked through with sweat. thin unbreakable breakable solidity softness thickness hardness now. 220811 what's it to you? who go blather from