breakdown wisdom torch when i was in the hospital, they had copies of Breakthrough magazine. but i wasn't really thinking that it was a breakthrough this time. i knew it was serious. i really fucking lost it. there was no crying involved. i'd been losing it for years, actually. it's like something pulled me deep inside and showed me an entirely subjective world. brain chemistry. but would it have happened to anybody, considering? i dunno. like i said, it was entirely subjective. don't let anybody tell you you can be saved from your sins. salvation and condemnation are really the same. forgiveness, on the other hand, is intelligence. that day, an indian woman singing opera over a waterfall. beautiful. truth. my mom'll tell you. 020502 what's it to you? who go blather from