forgive_yourself 6sy sorry, you have no choice. eventually you have to whether you want to or not. 081123 ... unhinged no, some people spend their lives without ever forgiving themselves. but i think that would be a miserable guilt_ridden existence. i'm having a hard time of it lately myself. the longer i drag this relationship out that does nothing but stir negative feelings in me, the more intense those feelings get. he makes me feel annoyed, guilty, bitchy, cold. pretty much all the things i thought a relationship was supposed to cure. and i'm so weak i can't bring myself to rip off the band aid and cute him loose. selfish, guilty. i don't want to hurt his feelings, but i think it's unavoidable at this point. 081124 ... 6sy there is a scared part_of_us_that_wishes_to_die which is mightily disappointed when it finds outhathere's no rest from life. pattern_all_ripples continue our personality. there is a sacred part_of_us_that_knows_only_life which is forever reli(e)ved that dirt comes back to awake even from the most shattered moments... and that it was worth it. hell_is_not_wanting_life yet finding you're stuck in it forever. heaven_is_wanting_life_forever and knowing you have no destiny other than bliss... eventually. 081125 what's it to you? who go blather from