dibs tender_square mom couldn't remember if i'd said i was going with her on her next visit to see grandma in the nursing_home or not. and there was a problem, because now terri wanted to go. my sister and i have not seen one another or spoken in almost three years. we couldn't both make the trip together. i tried to be accommodating and offer up the slot for terri this time around; she's never seen grandma in this new facility and grandma's been there for almost a year. meanwhile, i've been getting to go every other week for the past few months. mom repeatedly asked if i was sure and i cracked, tears falling. i wasn't throwing a tantrum, i was admitting how much the visit meant to me when my days lack shape. the expectation had been set and i couldn't let it go, needed family close by when i was feeling low. 230319 what's it to you? who go blather from