crazy_for_you tender_square when terri agreed to chaperone a seventh grade halloween party i hosted, i knew it was going to be more exciting than if my mom had been supervising. we decorated the basement living room with cotton cobwebs and plastic spiders, placed pumpkin bowls on all the tables and ledges and filled them with candy and chips. in one area, we set up a blind touch test where partygoers put their hands into paper bags to feel brains or eyeballs (spaghetti and olives). terri played dj, turned the lights low, and got the guys and girls to pair up for slow dances when we were too reluctant. when she cued “crazy for you,” she steered me towards my crush, matt, and he and i began to tentatively sway together. i couldn’t believe he was dancing with me; time didn’t exist in that moment, i may have forgotten how to breathe. madonna serenaded with words that were in my heart: "i never wanted anyone like this it’s all brand new" “matt, why don’t you give her a kiss on the cheek,” terri suggested. he shrugged and went in to give me a quick peck. at the same moment, terri stood behind me and moved my head so that matt’s kiss landed on square on my lips. what a wingman! matt and i danced a second time a little later, this time to a song i picked. terri didn’t try the kiss trick again. and i knew matt and i would never be anything as eddie vedder crooned “hearts and thoughts they fade, fade away.” the next morning, i longed to relive each moment, and i walked through the living room reimagining every blissful scene, pressing my fingertips against my lips in an attempt to remember the feeling. 211031 what's it to you? who go blather from