rush moonshine There was an unfounded beauty, there was you and there was me. Tucked quietly in cabinets,never opened in light of eachother. Shushed, packaged and sealed. Now I find the key, to reveal what was really there. To stand back in the splendor, much too late. There's too much time without you. I dream the million ways we will meet again. I'll pry your eyes back open. 011122 ... leif I rushed home to be with you. It's not always enough to be just bodies in a bed. I need to feel connected. Tonight I feel dismissed. And it's confusing because I look around me, and I can see things that you've done that I know you've done to benefit me. I don't understand why my enthusiasm to be at home wasn't met with some similar reaction to my arrival. I don't like feeling this way. I know that we are tired. I know that we are busy. I rushed to come home. Why didn't you rush to receive me? ...am I unreasonable? Do I expect too much? 160531 ... tender_square where does it originate, this sense of strict timeliness? it comes on most acutely when plans are loosely defined, a starting point yet to be made. but it also appears when a meeting time has been violated. is it borne out of being overly conscientious? why does it irritate me so when things don't begin on *my* understood timeline? why should it impact the space we're sharing now? what am i rushing for? 230129 ... nr you admitted to being guilty of rushing things, so how can you expect a natural connection suitable to that speed to form? 230129 what's it to you? who go blather from