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Sonya I sometimes wonder which "quality" is worse in a person. Is it when he is a liar? I think it's worse when he's a coward but is too self righteous to admit it. 060419
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unhinged i'm so sorry dear. i should be there with you at your father's funeral. i could make up all kinds of lame excuses, but the fact is funerals make me all squirmy inside. like something is inside me that shouldn't be. they never seemed right, somehow missing the mark, just like when i went to church as a child. i've been praying for you and your father, your family. sending you my love like radio waves. i hope you could feel it; i feel like an asshole for not being there.


in a way i'm glad i missed olga 's funeral. i played a wedding this weekend and part of the sermon or reading maybe '...and then there was faith, hope, and love. the most important being love.' her middle name was quite literally love. over nine years later, in that context, my heart panged at the memory.
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unhinged i say things because i know you listen and then i hear the hurt in your_voice and even four beers later the tears fall

selfish, the way i need you. the way i've always needed you.
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